Resolve

Well, here we are. The apocalypse decided to stay way another year. My carelessness must once again be laid to rest. Spending must be wrangled back in...  Life procedes, unhindered, and we all must accept that the mundane shall continue forth. So as I sit here packing away my zombie fighting gear, and contemplating my seemingly long future, I'm left to revel over the concept of the New Year's Resolution. What the ever-loving hell does that even mean? It's really awfully stupid when I think about it hard enough. Goals are a beautiful thing. Using a calendar change to procrastinate the fulfillment of those goals, not so much. But hey, to each their own! So back to me :-)  I resolve to be healthier. I don't mean going to the gym or eating better. One should do those things anyway. I will not waste time on those who do not deserve it. I will love more, fight less. Yell less. Talk less. (Hahaha who the hdck am i kidding? No I won't :) hug harder, longer, more. I will play. I will laugh. I will laugh at my mistakes. I will laugh at the concept of 'mistakes' I will tell jokes, eat food, watch movies and listen to beautiful music. I will sing. I will tell people I love them. (Even if they hate it and even if they don't love me back) I will be proud. Not cocky. Proud. I will learn the difference between the two. I will learn. I will struggle. I will cry. I will have sex. I will enjoy it. (Dog willing) I will remember to call people back. I will be the best friend I can be... I think what I'm getting at here is that though I've had to put my crossbow back in the rafters and I'm really really REALLY sad about it,  I'm overwhelmingly grateful. I guess what I'm trying to say here is this year, I will live. Happy New Year everyone.